I’m not really into pot…at all. I like my CBD oil at night, but that’s it. I’ve smoked pot 2 times and each time it made me sleepy. I’m already tired all the time. I also had a cookie once. Well, half a cookie…. that my extremely pot tolerant brother made for himself. He didn’t tell me I shouldn’t eat all of it. I was paranoid and time traveling. Not my idea of a good time.
Last year someone I know went to Colorado and brought back a gummy for me. I just left it in the baggie and forgot about it.
Until last night.
I had a meltdown because my PCP is a sexist ass. He told me my hip pain was all in my head and due to my mental issues and that I needed to talk to my psychiatrist about being able to move past the discomfort.
I was like, bitch, all I do is push past discomfort. Not to mention the only reason I am seeing a psych is because he won’t prescribe my ADD meds.
He never even tried to give me a physical exam. I did get him to give me a referral for an orthopedic surgeon after I started silently crying.
After I left I had a full on melt down. I’m so sick of people not listening to me and acting like I’m just not working hard enough. They have no idea how hard I’ve worked my whole life. How hard I have to work just get them to listen. Screw them. Except, I need them.
I got home and wanted to give up. I was so tired and just feeling hopeless. Then I remembered the gummy. I thought, why not? My back was killing me too and I just wanted some stress relief.
I am a convert. I was not high and it made my body relaxed and my mind clear. Basically everything I’ve ever wanted from my medication. My nose was even clear so that must mean it helped with the inflammation too.
I’m so lucky my state just legalized it for next year. I can’t wait until January, though. I can’t believe they refused to put autism on the medical list for my state. I know it’s only because they see autism as a kid’s disorder. So annoying.
I am also looking up work from home jobs. I plan on lying in my hammock while I work and hopefully build up to 20 hours a week. Lying in the hammock isn’t because I’m lazy, either. lol I need it for my back and the SPD.